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I don't claim to be the most eloquent and amazing writer, I don't even claim to be a good one, but this is my blog about life as I see it through the eyes of me (and I'm no where near perfect). I have troubles and such, but who doesn't right? So I hope you enjoy, and that you find none of yourself and your own thoughts here, but if you do, I hope this helps you find comfort, because you aren't alone (Remember, misery loves company). <3

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Better?

Should I get better? Should I turn my life from wanting to be skinny to wanting to be healthy? How would I do it if I did? Do I even want to get better? Do I even deserve to get better? Should I get better?

And those are just a few of my recovery related questions. I want to but I don't. I want to loose weight, and I am scared to gain it and such. I still don't like the feeling of full very much, I like the feeling of empty. I want to be happy and get better but I also am still terrified of gaining and I don't see myself as beautiful or good enough even for myself. I don't know what to do. I'm so lost. I think I'm going to try and get better. I'm not sure. I want to, but I don't. Gur!

Hey, if anyone actually reads this and has opinons, please comment and let me know. Should I get better?
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  1. NiaJuly 6, 2011 at 7:42 PM

    If you want to get better, it's entirely up to you. In my opinion if you want to recover, you need to be sure, because any doubt and you will just relapse.
    Why don't you try to maintain your weight for a little while and see how you feel? That way you don't need to get too stressed about weight gain.

    Whatever you choose, I'm sure you'll be amazing.

    Xx

    -Nia

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